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Holy cow, it has been a while. 
I know I'm not very active on here anymore. That's not to say I'm not active /at all/. Just... definitely not like I used to be. Sort of like my art. I don't really do art anymore. That's not to say I don't do art /at all/. Just far less than I once did.
Once upon a time, dA was my livelihood. My home. I couldn't bare to be away. I used to chomp at the bit, eager to snag internet, anywhere, for any length of time, to answer messages and attempt to keep up on things. It was one of my priorities, you could say. And while I remember the feeling well and look back on that time fondly -- albeit with a bit of a chuckle -- things just aren't what they once were. Now I have internet access every day. And I hardly ever come back here. When I do, it's to update people, mostly so they can see how cute my kid is and know I'm still alive. It used to be a very real thing for me, worrying that I wouldn't be able to get to internet and people would think I was dead. I have known a few artists who have disappeared off the face of the earth with no warning and never returned. I never found out what happened to them. I suppose that's another reason why I come back.
So... what changed?
Well, everything.
I used to draw every day. Every. Day. I would come home from school and draw. I would draw on weekends and all summer and whenever I could. My art was my passion and the reason I improved as I did was because I literally did nothing but draw.
As of right now, I'm in an awkward position with my art. Because I know it's "good" but I also know I could be better, and I have goals. I actually want to begin working on my humans. I would love to develop my digital art skills as well. But that requires time and money that I don't have. Actually, I'll be buying a used tablet from a good friend here soon, so there's that, but that doesn't mean I can or will sit down and dedicate myself hours at a time anymore.
I am aware that there are plenty of artists who work and have a family and still crank out art. I simply choose not to overload myself. I choose my daughter over my art, and my sleep over art. Always. lol The sleep thing may sound funny to you, but hey, have a kid and get back to me on that. I have a very strict self-inflicted bedtime. 10:30 I'm getting ready for bed. Because I'm up bright and early every morning. And there is no "warming up" to mornings when you have a three year old. You open your eyes and it's GO GO GO. I must have a mean resting bitch face in the morning because Lizzy is always telling me to "make happy" when we wake up. Honey, Mommy isn't sad or angry. She needs coffee.
She is getting older, so... part of me thinks, yes, this is it, you can finally maybe start doing some art again! But let me be honest with you guys. I want another baby. Don't know when. Let's just say, I'm not pregnant currently, but we are not preventing and haven't been. So it's going to happen when it happens. Sonu and I both want it. I KNOW Lizzy does, because she keeps asking for a brother. But yeah, if I had to choose between doing my art again and "starting over" with another baby... I choose the baby. I always wanted a family and that's my choice.
I'm sure EVENTUALLY all my kids will go to school and then, assuming I'm not working, I could do more art, more often. But we'll see lol.
I'm rambling a lot lol. What has happened in my life in the year+ since I've updated properly?
We got our own place in June. It's actually tiny and pretty pricey but it's also in a really nice area and the location is great and we like it here, so. That's where we are, at least until June. We'll likely consider moving in a year or two. Eventually we would like to try to buy a house, but... baby steps.
This is my living room. I snapped this picture as proof that sometimes I have a floor. I more often than not have toys all over creation and had just spent a week with people tearing apart my living room with all my furniture in the middle of the room while they put in the new heating.
Sonu and I celebrated our one year wedding anniversary on August 6th.
Lizzy has requested to be a pirate for Halloween, so a pirate she gets. As excited as she is, though, she is already demanding we put up Christmas decorations.
I am looking forward to NaNoWriMo, though I won't be doing it in the traditional sense of "hey, write a book in a month". There is NO WAY a story as long and in-depth as mine will be completed that quickly lol. I'm actually anticipating three separate books from it, but for now am referring to them as Parts 1, 2 and 3. I can hope to finish "Part 1" or at least flesh out the entire flow and plot line for Parts 1 and 2. Part 3 is like... man. Idek. My characters will tell me what to do. They're bossy like that haha.
So... yeah. That's about it. In conclusion, I still do art, I'm actually working on a few commissions currently, but I don't update often here. I'm most active on IG, tbh. My art account is @ insaneromanart but it's about as active as this place lol. You'll see more over on @ insane_roman.
I know I'm not very active on here anymore. That's not to say I'm not active /at all/. Just... definitely not like I used to be. Sort of like my art. I don't really do art anymore. That's not to say I don't do art /at all/. Just far less than I once did.
Once upon a time, dA was my livelihood. My home. I couldn't bare to be away. I used to chomp at the bit, eager to snag internet, anywhere, for any length of time, to answer messages and attempt to keep up on things. It was one of my priorities, you could say. And while I remember the feeling well and look back on that time fondly -- albeit with a bit of a chuckle -- things just aren't what they once were. Now I have internet access every day. And I hardly ever come back here. When I do, it's to update people, mostly so they can see how cute my kid is and know I'm still alive. It used to be a very real thing for me, worrying that I wouldn't be able to get to internet and people would think I was dead. I have known a few artists who have disappeared off the face of the earth with no warning and never returned. I never found out what happened to them. I suppose that's another reason why I come back.
So... what changed?
Well, everything.
I used to draw every day. Every. Day. I would come home from school and draw. I would draw on weekends and all summer and whenever I could. My art was my passion and the reason I improved as I did was because I literally did nothing but draw.
As of right now, I'm in an awkward position with my art. Because I know it's "good" but I also know I could be better, and I have goals. I actually want to begin working on my humans. I would love to develop my digital art skills as well. But that requires time and money that I don't have. Actually, I'll be buying a used tablet from a good friend here soon, so there's that, but that doesn't mean I can or will sit down and dedicate myself hours at a time anymore. I am aware that there are plenty of artists who work and have a family and still crank out art. I simply choose not to overload myself. I choose my daughter over my art, and my sleep over art. Always. lol The sleep thing may sound funny to you, but hey, have a kid and get back to me on that. I have a very strict self-inflicted bedtime. 10:30 I'm getting ready for bed. Because I'm up bright and early every morning. And there is no "warming up" to mornings when you have a three year old. You open your eyes and it's GO GO GO. I must have a mean resting bitch face in the morning because Lizzy is always telling me to "make happy" when we wake up. Honey, Mommy isn't sad or angry. She needs coffee.
She is getting older, so... part of me thinks, yes, this is it, you can finally maybe start doing some art again! But let me be honest with you guys. I want another baby. Don't know when. Let's just say, I'm not pregnant currently, but we are not preventing and haven't been. So it's going to happen when it happens. Sonu and I both want it. I KNOW Lizzy does, because she keeps asking for a brother. But yeah, if I had to choose between doing my art again and "starting over" with another baby... I choose the baby. I always wanted a family and that's my choice.
I'm sure EVENTUALLY all my kids will go to school and then, assuming I'm not working, I could do more art, more often. But we'll see lol.
I'm rambling a lot lol. What has happened in my life in the year+ since I've updated properly?
We got our own place in June. It's actually tiny and pretty pricey but it's also in a really nice area and the location is great and we like it here, so. That's where we are, at least until June. We'll likely consider moving in a year or two. Eventually we would like to try to buy a house, but... baby steps.
This is my living room. I snapped this picture as proof that sometimes I have a floor. I more often than not have toys all over creation and had just spent a week with people tearing apart my living room with all my furniture in the middle of the room while they put in the new heating.
Sonu and I celebrated our one year wedding anniversary on August 6th.
Lizzy has requested to be a pirate for Halloween, so a pirate she gets. As excited as she is, though, she is already demanding we put up Christmas decorations.
I am looking forward to NaNoWriMo, though I won't be doing it in the traditional sense of "hey, write a book in a month". There is NO WAY a story as long and in-depth as mine will be completed that quickly lol. I'm actually anticipating three separate books from it, but for now am referring to them as Parts 1, 2 and 3. I can hope to finish "Part 1" or at least flesh out the entire flow and plot line for Parts 1 and 2. Part 3 is like... man. Idek. My characters will tell me what to do. They're bossy like that haha.
So... yeah. That's about it. In conclusion, I still do art, I'm actually working on a few commissions currently, but I don't update often here. I'm most active on IG, tbh. My art account is @ insaneromanart but it's about as active as this place lol. You'll see more over on @ insane_roman.
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Married!!!
2 min read
Sorry it took me a bit to get around to writing this lol. But on August 6th, I married the most amazing man.
It was such a beautiful wedding. We had it at a lake, thanks to a family friend, and I got many, many beautiful photos captured by my friend
's amazingly talented husband, 
! Thank you SO much again!
We had a special part of the ceremony where Sonu vowed to be Elizabeth's father, to love her forever and care for her, etc, and he presented here with a stuffed cat we made together at Build a Bear. It was outfitted in a wedding dress, and we kissed the heart before placing it inside her kitty.
We spent a couple nights alone locally and then took Lizzy to a campground around 40 minutes away for a 3 night stay, got a nice cabin there and enjoyed ourselves.
I know I'm not active here very much since art had given way to motherhood, but I know a few of you like updates now and then!
Lots of love, Roman
It was such a beautiful wedding. We had it at a lake, thanks to a family friend, and I got many, many beautiful photos captured by my friend
's amazingly talented husband, ! Thank you SO much again!We had a special part of the ceremony where Sonu vowed to be Elizabeth's father, to love her forever and care for her, etc, and he presented here with a stuffed cat we made together at Build a Bear. It was outfitted in a wedding dress, and we kissed the heart before placing it inside her kitty.
We spent a couple nights alone locally and then took Lizzy to a campground around 40 minutes away for a 3 night stay, got a nice cabin there and enjoyed ourselves.
I know I'm not active here very much since art had given way to motherhood, but I know a few of you like updates now and then!
Lots of love, Roman
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My niece was basically kidnapped
3 min read
Here's the GoFundMe:
www.gofundme.com/24mr7ptc
Here's the summary:
My sister, Mariah, just left a toxic and manipulative relationship that was becoming physically violent. She left fearing for her safety and well-being, and brought her one year old daughter with her to our parents' home.
A few days ago, the father came to take the baby for the night, and while he refused to talk with Mariah about their strained relationship, she assured him that she would never keep his child from him.
After he took her, he cut off all communication. She tried for days to text and call both him and his family members, and never got an answer from anybody. Currently we do not know where her daughter is or who she is with.
Next thing we know, she gets a summons to go to court, because her (now ex) fiancé was suddenly filing for full custody of her daughter, claiming that Mariah was an unfit parent (drugs, alcohol and other false claims). Mariah is an amazing, mature and loving mother and young lady.
The father has a history of anger and control issues and while we are sure he would never purposely harm his daughter, we are concerned about what she may be being exposed to without Mariah there to get her out of the house when issues with his anger arise. Mariah took her to a safe place when things began turning regularly violent and now he is trying to say that she is the one who is unfit.
We found a great lawyer to fight for custody and placement of her daughter, but we need $2,000 down and $200 per hour of appearance in court. Please help us raise this money so we can hire a lawyer to work with Mariah's previous teachers and counselor to show the court that this is another form of manipulation by a toxic ex as another means to control her, lying to unfairly keep a young child from her loving mother and family!
I am still considering going back to college after the wedding and I'll need a laptop for that, but my priorities have changed since I've posted my last journal. If you're going to spread the word, please make it about this one, for now. My niece is infinitely more important!
If you know me on Facebook and you share it there (which you can do whether you know me or not), don't tag me!!! We haven't heard a thing from them since he took her. We don't know where she is or who she's with. I'm still friends with them here on Facebook and am lying low hoping to see some sort of update on her. :\
www.gofundme.com/24mr7ptc
Here's the summary:
My sister, Mariah, just left a toxic and manipulative relationship that was becoming physically violent. She left fearing for her safety and well-being, and brought her one year old daughter with her to our parents' home.
A few days ago, the father came to take the baby for the night, and while he refused to talk with Mariah about their strained relationship, she assured him that she would never keep his child from him.
After he took her, he cut off all communication. She tried for days to text and call both him and his family members, and never got an answer from anybody. Currently we do not know where her daughter is or who she is with.
Next thing we know, she gets a summons to go to court, because her (now ex) fiancé was suddenly filing for full custody of her daughter, claiming that Mariah was an unfit parent (drugs, alcohol and other false claims). Mariah is an amazing, mature and loving mother and young lady.
The father has a history of anger and control issues and while we are sure he would never purposely harm his daughter, we are concerned about what she may be being exposed to without Mariah there to get her out of the house when issues with his anger arise. Mariah took her to a safe place when things began turning regularly violent and now he is trying to say that she is the one who is unfit.
We found a great lawyer to fight for custody and placement of her daughter, but we need $2,000 down and $200 per hour of appearance in court. Please help us raise this money so we can hire a lawyer to work with Mariah's previous teachers and counselor to show the court that this is another form of manipulation by a toxic ex as another means to control her, lying to unfairly keep a young child from her loving mother and family!
I am still considering going back to college after the wedding and I'll need a laptop for that, but my priorities have changed since I've posted my last journal. If you're going to spread the word, please make it about this one, for now. My niece is infinitely more important!
If you know me on Facebook and you share it there (which you can do whether you know me or not), don't tag me!!! We haven't heard a thing from them since he took her. We don't know where she is or who she's with. I'm still friends with them here on Facebook and am lying low hoping to see some sort of update on her. :\
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Announcement (and maybe some help?)
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Hey all! Forgive me for disappearing for such long gaps of time! I've just been so busy with work and motherhood and life in general, lol.
I do have an announcement, though! I honestly can't believe it took me so long to announce it here, and if you know me on Facebook I'm sure you've known for a while now lol.
This is Harpreet. Everyone, including myself, calls him Sonu.
He is the kindest, sweetest, most genuine man I've ever met. He treats me like a queen, and even more importantly, treats Lizzy like his little Princess.
And on August 6th, I am going to marry him.
I am so excited, and I'm also very lucky to be having come to my wedding! She's such a sweetheart and a huge role model for me! If you don't follow her on Facebook or IG yet, you should lol. /end shameless advertising
This may seem sudden to you guys but I really did disappear from here after Lizzy was born haha. Can you believe she's going to be 2 next month?!
As for art, it's been hard lately. I've been having only one day off every 7 days or so and it's just so much work to pull out all my papers, inks and pencils to draw traditionally. If I had a working computer I'd be able to work on my novel and take small digital commissions and icons for a little extra cash, but my computer is just too ancient at this point to properly function at all. I actually made a GoFundMe to try to raise money to buy a new one (for so many reasons other than just art. In this day and age you practically NEED a computer for everything. Job applications, school if I chose to return, etc.). My friend asked me to post it so she could signal boost it, so if anyone is by chance able to donate a little, you'd be making a huge difference to a (for now) single mom who is supporting her parents, child, sister and niece. I'd love to be able to draw again, I'm an aspiring author with no way to type and store anything I work on, not to mention I have tons of family photos stuck in my phone because I can't transfer them to a computer. (PLEASE don't recommend backing them up online, I don't have wifi and it's just not feasible)
So yeah, if you can help or spread the word, here's that:
gofundme.com/23f9fys
I hope everyone is doing well! I apologize for late replies lol I have a lot going on and I often forget to check back here.
I've just been so busy with work and motherhood and life in general, lol.I do have an announcement, though! I honestly can't believe it took me so long to announce it here, and if you know me on Facebook I'm sure you've known for a while now lol.
This is Harpreet. Everyone, including myself, calls him Sonu.
He is the kindest, sweetest, most genuine man I've ever met. He treats me like a queen, and even more importantly, treats Lizzy like his little Princess.
And on August 6th, I am going to marry him.
I am so excited, and I'm also very lucky to be having
come to my wedding! She's such a sweetheart and a huge role model for me! If you don't follow her on Facebook or IG yet, you should lol. /end shameless advertising This may seem sudden to you guys but I really did disappear from here after Lizzy was born haha. Can you believe she's going to be 2 next month?!
As for art, it's been hard lately. I've been having only one day off every 7 days or so and it's just so much work to pull out all my papers, inks and pencils to draw traditionally. If I had a working computer I'd be able to work on my novel and take small digital commissions and icons for a little extra cash, but my computer is just too ancient at this point to properly function at all. I actually made a GoFundMe to try to raise money to buy a new one (for so many reasons other than just art. In this day and age you practically NEED a computer for everything. Job applications, school if I chose to return, etc.). My friend asked me to post it so she could signal boost it, so if anyone is by chance able to donate a little, you'd be making a huge difference to a (for now) single mom who is supporting her parents, child, sister and niece. I'd love to be able to draw again, I'm an aspiring author with no way to type and store anything I work on, not to mention I have tons of family photos stuck in my phone because I can't transfer them to a computer. (PLEASE don't recommend backing them up online, I don't have wifi and it's just not feasible)
So yeah, if you can help or spread the word, here's that:
gofundme.com/23f9fys
I hope everyone is doing well! I apologize for late replies lol I have a lot going on and I often forget to check back here.
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Readers Wanted!!!
3 min read
I have a pretty specific topic to talk about here, so bare with me. Would anybody be interested in reading some of my writing? I'm working on a fantasy novel that I personally plan on getting published someday. Thing is, I'm horribly lacking feedback. I see no problem with me posting the first draft up here as I complete it. I'd love to see how many people are interested, what you'd like to see more from me in my writing, what you like, dislike, etc. And of course, please tell me if there's anything I can correct lol.
It's a fantasy novel, so I feel like it would appeal to a lot people. Hopefully. When it's completed and I'm ready to edit and maybe publish (or self publish on Kindle?) I would remove it from here, no problem. But you guys could stay up to date with everything. Sounds fun, if it takes off like I'd like to dream lol.
But anyway, I don't really have time for art anymore. Writing is much easier to start, put down, and pick back up again on limited time. And I adore the story and the characters. They've been a part of me for around six years or more. I would love for this to come to fruition, and it's so much easier to do if I'm inspired and driven by people who are actually waiting to read it instead of a vague "maybe people will like it lol". I could even try setting goals, like a new chapter every ____, you know?
And would you want me to post them on this account? I'm almost considering making a new account specifically for it, so that I can post the synopsis where it can be easily seen, etc.
Alternatively, do you know any other websites for writers I could post original fiction to instead/as well?
Just let me know what you think. I don't know how many of my watchers are readers. But uploading chapter by chapter would make it managable for both me as a writer and the people read it (instead of downloading an entire book and giving feedback once it's completed).
-- Roman
Unrelated Note: Thanks for all the birthday wishes and sorry for not being around! I'll get back to you all ASAP!
Would anybody be interested in reading some of my writing? I'm working on a fantasy novel that I personally plan on getting published someday. Thing is, I'm horribly lacking feedback. I see no problem with me posting the first draft up here as I complete it. I'd love to see how many people are interested, what you'd like to see more from me in my writing, what you like, dislike, etc. And of course, please tell me if there's anything I can correct lol.It's a fantasy novel, so I feel like it would appeal to a lot people. Hopefully.
When it's completed and I'm ready to edit and maybe publish (or self publish on Kindle?) I would remove it from here, no problem. But you guys could stay up to date with everything. Sounds fun, if it takes off like I'd like to dream lol.But anyway, I don't really have time for art anymore. Writing is much easier to start, put down, and pick back up again on limited time. And I adore the story and the characters. They've been a part of me for around six years or more. I would love for this to come to fruition, and it's so much easier to do if I'm inspired and driven by people who are actually waiting to read it instead of a vague "maybe people will like it lol". I could even try setting goals, like a new chapter every ____, you know?
And would you want me to post them on this account? I'm almost considering making a new account specifically for it, so that I can post the synopsis where it can be easily seen, etc.
Alternatively, do you know any other websites for writers I could post original fiction to instead/as well?
Just let me know what you think. I don't know how many of my watchers are readers. But uploading chapter by chapter would make it managable for both me as a writer and the people read it (instead of downloading an entire book and giving feedback once it's completed).
-- Roman
Unrelated Note: Thanks for all the birthday wishes and sorry for not being around! I'll get back to you all ASAP!
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